Okay, quick update on my thought process today....

So, last night I was up crying/stressed (the whole nine yards)... I slept in until about 10am and I got a call that my ob/gyn can take me today instead of tomorrow (they wanted to avoid all of tomorrow's cancellations bc of the weather). I ended up seeing my Dr.'s partner instead of my Dr... which is sort of a bummer. I love my Dr a little too much. He is seriously the nicest doctor I have ever had (his partner is great too...)! Anyways, at the end of my appt I was talking to the nurses and they told me the real reason my doctor hasn't been in is because his wife passed away. I obviously did not know my ob/gyn's wife but here is what I do know: my Dr is in his mid 40s and has 4 daughters and 1 son (we joked at my last appt i need another girl and we'll have the same family dynamic)... All I could think about is (aside from the obvious sadness) is how blessed my doctor is to have had the experience of having wonderful children there to be with him in this time of loss (and that the children have each other).

Okay!! My point to all this is my thoughts today: No matter what may ever happen to Me or Adam in the future it is so nice knowing that I have 4 children that will be in each others lives! They're going to have an amazing bond being triplets and Adrienne is pretty close in age to them too! It's also nice when they're older and when one is busy, there is another that will call... or... when they have kids, I will be grandma to a bunch of kids! I know this sounds like an odd tangent but it is weird I was up all night wondering how I can possibly be a wonderful mom to 4 babies at once... and like some of you posted, it will be tough- but I know the smiling faces for years to come will make it more than worth it!

Anyways, I guess I'm updating that in spite of horrible news, it made me realize all the positives (if that makes sense).....

I need to post more. It really is therapeutic! (And probably cheaper than a shrink)  =)