before!! (okay, before Adrienne too)
Week 30!
girl 1! 
girl 2!
boy!Monday, January 31, 2011
An honest post (while in week 30)
Alright, I have almost always kept a journal through my life and oddly right now I haven't written any of my "true" feelings about this pregnancy down. When I found out I was pregnant w/ Adrienne I wrote pages and pages of thoughts down (I was 19, not married yet, working, in school, broke, etc,...)
Now, with 3 babies you would think I have so much more to write about... I think I am still truly at a loss for words with this surprise blessing. Adam and I knew we wanted to try for one more and when I found out there was 3.... I don't know, the shock hasn't FULLY worn off. Everyday, I remind myself that god would never give me more than I can handle (which i truly believe). I also remind myself that I am a good mom and Adam is an amazing dad.... Adrienne will be such a sweet sister.... the list goes on! But, once in a while I let my thought/hormones get the best of me. I wonder if having 3 babies will be so stressful that it takes the joy out of being a mom. I am almost 100% sure we're done with kids... I hate the idea of looking back at this pregnancy and the newborn stage and possibly realizing I didn't fully enjoy it. I catch myself looking at my moving stomach and its odd to think that at 22 I'll never experience the miracle of growing a child again. Okay, I'm going all over the place (sorry)......
I'm completely terrified that while Adam is in Afghanistan (sometime this fall for about a year) I will simply become miserable. I'm already starting to feel isolated because even though I have just a few friends; they have their own lives. None of which have children, nor are married... I know I need to meet people I have more in common with. I guess I just know the reality of meeting someone who understands the pressure of being a young parent of 4 children will be hard to come by.
Sorry if I sound like I am pitying myself, because I don't think I am... I guess I'm just expressing my stresses! Because on the flip side, I am beyond lucky to know that I am young, healthy, have a wonderful family, and that my babies will be so loved and well taken care of and provided for.
I think before the babies come I need to really try to find a parents of multiples support group and even possibly talk to a therapist/life coach. I know its hormones now, but I know I am at a higher risk of depression... and honestly some nights, I wonder if I am already(?!) Like I said before, I want to enjoy all my babies and their childhood, I know I'll have help but I just feel so overwhelmed right now.
A few more things to bitch about:
-I am SO sick of people asking if I took fertility drugs. I'm not offended, but I wonder since when is it a question that is okay to ask a stranger (?) Or, if I had, would it then offend me (?)
-I wish my dad and siblings wanted to be more involved in my life and my daughters
-I love Adam more than anything but I just wish/hope/pray he gets accepts this SOON (I don't want to write about his feelings on here, but obviously men have a harder time accepting change than women. Especially in the baby dept)
-Oh! I'm sure the hormones make me cry more than normal... but my reflection in the mirror does too. I hate not being the kind of person that finds myself beautiful while pregnant. I have no "glow"!!! My skin is dry, I'm broken out, I cannot breathe AT ALL, standing hurts, my back aches, my boobs leak, my throat is dry, and of course I'm carrying an extra 40 lbs and I am sure there are more lbs to come..........
If you've read all this.... then, thank you! I hope I don't sound like a horrible person anywhere on here, but I can't sleep and needed to "write"
~Sam
Now, with 3 babies you would think I have so much more to write about... I think I am still truly at a loss for words with this surprise blessing. Adam and I knew we wanted to try for one more and when I found out there was 3.... I don't know, the shock hasn't FULLY worn off. Everyday, I remind myself that god would never give me more than I can handle (which i truly believe). I also remind myself that I am a good mom and Adam is an amazing dad.... Adrienne will be such a sweet sister.... the list goes on! But, once in a while I let my thought/hormones get the best of me. I wonder if having 3 babies will be so stressful that it takes the joy out of being a mom. I am almost 100% sure we're done with kids... I hate the idea of looking back at this pregnancy and the newborn stage and possibly realizing I didn't fully enjoy it. I catch myself looking at my moving stomach and its odd to think that at 22 I'll never experience the miracle of growing a child again. Okay, I'm going all over the place (sorry)......
I'm completely terrified that while Adam is in Afghanistan (sometime this fall for about a year) I will simply become miserable. I'm already starting to feel isolated because even though I have just a few friends; they have their own lives. None of which have children, nor are married... I know I need to meet people I have more in common with. I guess I just know the reality of meeting someone who understands the pressure of being a young parent of 4 children will be hard to come by.
Sorry if I sound like I am pitying myself, because I don't think I am... I guess I'm just expressing my stresses! Because on the flip side, I am beyond lucky to know that I am young, healthy, have a wonderful family, and that my babies will be so loved and well taken care of and provided for.
I think before the babies come I need to really try to find a parents of multiples support group and even possibly talk to a therapist/life coach. I know its hormones now, but I know I am at a higher risk of depression... and honestly some nights, I wonder if I am already(?!) Like I said before, I want to enjoy all my babies and their childhood, I know I'll have help but I just feel so overwhelmed right now.
A few more things to bitch about:
-I am SO sick of people asking if I took fertility drugs. I'm not offended, but I wonder since when is it a question that is okay to ask a stranger (?) Or, if I had, would it then offend me (?)
-I wish my dad and siblings wanted to be more involved in my life and my daughters
-I love Adam more than anything but I just wish/hope/pray he gets accepts this SOON (I don't want to write about his feelings on here, but obviously men have a harder time accepting change than women. Especially in the baby dept)
-Oh! I'm sure the hormones make me cry more than normal... but my reflection in the mirror does too. I hate not being the kind of person that finds myself beautiful while pregnant. I have no "glow"!!! My skin is dry, I'm broken out, I cannot breathe AT ALL, standing hurts, my back aches, my boobs leak, my throat is dry, and of course I'm carrying an extra 40 lbs and I am sure there are more lbs to come..........
If you've read all this.... then, thank you! I hope I don't sound like a horrible person anywhere on here, but I can't sleep and needed to "write"
~Sam
Friday, January 28, 2011
28 Week U/S update
Okay!!
As of this morning...
Baby 1 (girl): 2 lb, 10 oz
Baby 2 (girl): 2 lb, 12 oz
Baby 3 (boy): 3 lb, 1 oz (still 50th percentile. Not sure about the girls)
If I'm adding this correctly, I think I have a total baby weight of 8 lb, 7 oz!!! (Correct me if I'm wrong...) Adrienne weighed 8 lb, 5 oz at 40w2d. So, with almost 6 weeks to go I am very curious to see how big I'll get! I'm hoping for them all to weigh at least 4 lbs and this is looking like a definite possibility... I'll post the u/s pics later!
As of this morning...
Baby 1 (girl): 2 lb, 10 oz
Baby 2 (girl): 2 lb, 12 oz
Baby 3 (boy): 3 lb, 1 oz (still 50th percentile. Not sure about the girls)
If I'm adding this correctly, I think I have a total baby weight of 8 lb, 7 oz!!! (Correct me if I'm wrong...) Adrienne weighed 8 lb, 5 oz at 40w2d. So, with almost 6 weeks to go I am very curious to see how big I'll get! I'm hoping for them all to weigh at least 4 lbs and this is looking like a definite possibility... I'll post the u/s pics later!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
NURSERY PICS
Baby boy has trucks!
We still need to hang his red curtains and get furniture in there!!
girl's room. the lighting isn't great in this pic
my crazy stash of diapers. It retails for about 300 $ but I paid about 150$ or less... (there are more on bottom shelf)Monday, January 24, 2011
28 weeks! Surpassed my first goal!!
When I first found out I was having triplets my Ob/gyn let me know our first goal towards having 3 healthy babies (aside from 12 weeks where miscarriage rate drops dramatically) was 28 weeks! From there, I guess we're just taking it week-by-week and we'll arrange a C-section around the 34-36 week! So, this friday is my 28 week growth/anatomy U/S and I'm anxious for an update on all the weights of the babies! Last week, I had my cervix checked, glucose test done (again), and of course blood pressure/weight/baby heartbeats, etc,.... everything came back perfectly! Well, I guess I have a very low blood count... I just need to take even more vitamins. Its apparently normal to have a low blood count with multiples bc the babies are simply stealing all of my nutrients! And it could cause problems if I bled to much during c-section... (i think thats the concern...)
Nurseries are painted! Cribs are put together! All of the supplies are bought (even though I could prob use more preemie outfts)! hmm... we still need to put together our glider and dresser. If I haven't mentioned it before; the girls are going to share a room and the boy will have his own. But I think until they're sleeping through the night I'll have all 3 in the same room.
**I took pics of the nurseries but I'm not feeling up to going down stairs to get my camera! ** (my physical condition is getting horrible, still, no bed rest though)!!
We only bought two more cribs and we moved Adrienne into a toddler bed about 2-3 weeks ago. Some days and nights she does really well with it, other days she simply fights her naps and then falls asleep around 4-5pm very cranky which throws her off schedule. Adam and I talked about putting her back in the crib for a few months, but I think we're going to tough it out..we just need to establish more discipline with her! I know she is two but suddenly these past few weeks her tantrums have sky-rocketed!
We're still playing with a handful of names for the babies, but nothing has been decided!
Starting around week 30 I'll start doing weekly non-stress tests.
I can't think of much else to say. I know I need to post pics! And I'll update after my ultrasound on friday!
Thanks for reading/caring =) It is crazy how fast this pregnancy is progressing!
Nurseries are painted! Cribs are put together! All of the supplies are bought (even though I could prob use more preemie outfts)! hmm... we still need to put together our glider and dresser. If I haven't mentioned it before; the girls are going to share a room and the boy will have his own. But I think until they're sleeping through the night I'll have all 3 in the same room.
**I took pics of the nurseries but I'm not feeling up to going down stairs to get my camera! ** (my physical condition is getting horrible, still, no bed rest though)!!
We only bought two more cribs and we moved Adrienne into a toddler bed about 2-3 weeks ago. Some days and nights she does really well with it, other days she simply fights her naps and then falls asleep around 4-5pm very cranky which throws her off schedule. Adam and I talked about putting her back in the crib for a few months, but I think we're going to tough it out..we just need to establish more discipline with her! I know she is two but suddenly these past few weeks her tantrums have sky-rocketed!
We're still playing with a handful of names for the babies, but nothing has been decided!
Starting around week 30 I'll start doing weekly non-stress tests.
I can't think of much else to say. I know I need to post pics! And I'll update after my ultrasound on friday!
Thanks for reading/caring =) It is crazy how fast this pregnancy is progressing!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
26 weeks
So far, so good! As of now, it doesn't look like bed rest is going to come anytime too soon (knock on wood). I had another growth/anatomy ultrasound almost 2 weeks ago and at the same time there was a fluid evaluation (for identical girls) and i have another fluid eval this week. So as of about a week and a half ago the babies weights were:
baby 1 (girl): 1 lb, 2 oz. -5th percentile
baby 2 (girl): 1 lb, 5 oz- 20th percentile
baby 3 (boy): 1 lb, 8 oz- 50th percentile
So, its nice knowing at this point they're probably even bigger! I am currently measuring as if i were 35 weeks with a singleton! I'll have my glucose done again at 28 weeks and i will also have another growth/anatomy ultrasound that same week. As of now, i have been going back and forth between the OB/GYN and MFM (high risk) where I'm just getting routine checks (my weight/blood pressure, babies heartbeats, and checking my cervix) weekly. I've currently gained between 30-35 lbs!
Still no names decided!!
The nurseries are currently in the middle of being painted!
Other than just updating all of the facts, this pregnancy has been very easy (for a triplet pregnancy). I have a hard time breathing or standing/walking for a long time, but I really feel like I can't complain- I'm scared to speak too soon, but I really have had no problems with the babies and that is the only thing I can ask for! I know I should probably be on my feet less and take it even easier... =)
Adam and I are still both full of all sorts of mixed emotions: I am really excited most of the time and then I have my nights where I just totally question my ability to take care of 4 children, a household, be a good wife, and still keep my own sanity and happiness in check.
k, my mac is suddenly spazzing out.... im going to just publish this and finish updating soon!!!
baby 1 (girl): 1 lb, 2 oz. -5th percentile
baby 2 (girl): 1 lb, 5 oz- 20th percentile
baby 3 (boy): 1 lb, 8 oz- 50th percentile
So, its nice knowing at this point they're probably even bigger! I am currently measuring as if i were 35 weeks with a singleton! I'll have my glucose done again at 28 weeks and i will also have another growth/anatomy ultrasound that same week. As of now, i have been going back and forth between the OB/GYN and MFM (high risk) where I'm just getting routine checks (my weight/blood pressure, babies heartbeats, and checking my cervix) weekly. I've currently gained between 30-35 lbs!
Still no names decided!!
The nurseries are currently in the middle of being painted!
Other than just updating all of the facts, this pregnancy has been very easy (for a triplet pregnancy). I have a hard time breathing or standing/walking for a long time, but I really feel like I can't complain- I'm scared to speak too soon, but I really have had no problems with the babies and that is the only thing I can ask for! I know I should probably be on my feet less and take it even easier... =)
Adam and I are still both full of all sorts of mixed emotions: I am really excited most of the time and then I have my nights where I just totally question my ability to take care of 4 children, a household, be a good wife, and still keep my own sanity and happiness in check.
k, my mac is suddenly spazzing out.... im going to just publish this and finish updating soon!!!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
23 weeks
Sorry I haven't been great about updating and posting pictures! Everything is starting to feel surreal again! I had my baby shower last saturday (thank you everyone for everything)! I need to work on my thank you notes ASAP =) Adrienne turned 2 on the 8th... and now Christmas is around the corner!
I'm almost done shopping, and I just did my second trip of shopping for the babies. Adam and I polished a lot of things off our registry earlier this week and Jillie & I just did a Kohl's run for baby boy clothing. I still need to go through all of Adrienne's clothes to see what I do/don't need for the girls! I've been shopping so smart lately. Kohl's has ridiculously amazing clearance stuff and I've been all over diaper coupons/sales (I haven't spend more than 5-6$ on a pack of huggies/pampers). Haha...I'm glad I was already taught to be "thrifty"! Oh, I bought a double-electric breast pump off craigslist for only 140$ (saving about 150$) and it was BRAND NEW; box was still sealed and everything. Not bad for a first time CL purchase! (So, I guess I should mention I plan to pump for the babies. but still bottle feed) We still haven't purchased bedroom furniture for the babies; I'm waiting to get the rooms painted first... So I should probably hurry up and find someone to either help Adam or just hire someone!
As of friday I am measuring as if I were "33 weeks" with a singleton! I purchased a prenatal cradle (a full on body support holder) and it is really helping me stand for more than a few minutes without too much discomfort. Other than that, I am honestly feeling great. I am sort of bummed I have varicose vains starting to appear on one of my legs!! I am going this week to get a custom "support" stocking to prevent anymore VV from appearing or making them worse. They really aren't painful, I guess I'm just trying to preserve my body the best i can! I'll def need to post a picture of me in the body support thing with the stockings. NOT SEXY! So, according to both docs everything is still going very well! Babies have great heart beats and all the fluid seems to be at the right levels. I have another full growth/anatomy ultrasound in less than 2 weeks.
Also, I would have to mark week 22 as being the week of baby(s)-kicking truly taking off! It's nice feeling them stronger and being able to grab someone else to feel that this is for real!
So right now on my mind my list of things to do is:
-Look for painters
-Continue the live-in nanny/mom's help search
-Start playing with ideas for maternity photos
-continue to clean/organize before my docs decide i should be on a stricter rest schedule
Okay! I'll update again as soon as I can! ~Sam
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